resolutions
The end of the year is near and so its time to reflect and meditate about our behaviour. Some people like to think about money like Alec,
some people like to thnk about knowledge like andrew, some people like to think about power like Alex, and some people try to improve its quality of
life like gag.
But for me? What is for me? I am in my sweet twenty something, and I believe I have enough experience to diferentiate
what I like from the things that i dont like, the GOOD and the WRONG, but if i am already bif enough to distinguish between what is good
and what is not, what i keep doing all this harm to the other people.
I am being hypocrit with almost all the people, also with my boyfriend, and I really dont like that, my conscience
is starting to feel uncomfortable with the situation, I am pretending to be someone else friend and then I start talking
bullshit about this person infront of others (bullshit but true I never lie!!! :P), so as one of my years resolution I am planning
not to talk bad about any person either a customer, family member, or friends or collegues at work or boyfriend.
Also I like that people stare at me or admire me because some little lies that I need to use, but at the end of the day
they will not love me but the lies that i told. If i started to tell lies, then is not my life anymore is like living in a dream
i would like to and the others belive that I am in, but then when they discover the truth is not nice, and besides even If they dont
discover the truth everything is fake means that I am fake and not real. And I dont feel that sensation of freedom, because
from the moment i tell the lie on, I need to start pretending and need to consider what to say to match what i said before
and sometimes i can not maintain the lie for so long and at the end of the day everything just falls in me. I must remember that I am
a but a prisoner of what i say.
Last thing I would like to do for this year is not critice anybody else attitude or whatever, everytime I am with ALec or other friends
we are always criticising, but for me that is not the way I like to live so I will move on and abort those kind of conversations.
